22 for christmas

a friend referred me to 22 words, a blog that explores different ideas within the limits of 22. one fun thing they have is a 22-word challenge, getting your point across in 22 words exactly.

on a lark, here's my attempt at articulating the Incarnation in 22 words:

burst of light, cosmic symphony.

infinity swaddled in flesh, Creator becoming created.

completing the work that begins redemption.

o happy day, indeed!

cups of coffee: 2

mood: festive

o joy

some friends and i formed an a capella caroling group and took to the streets of shanghai last saturday. we hit one of the busiest pedestrian shopping streets in town, at the peak of crowd traffic.

i'll let the pictures speak for themselves....


here's to bringing a little holiday cheer and joy to those around us.... :)

cups of coffee: 1 1/2

mood: not bad, not bad at all

gasp

here's another little ditty, written in my journal a couple of months ago in a moment of trying to express the inexpressible....ha.

gasp

imperfect plaintive cries

inarticulate longing

reaching, reaching

hands raised, throat gaping

the heart swells

and opens to glory unfathomable

to fall, fall, fall

deeper into love unthinkable

yet so very graciously

accessible.

cups of coffee: none, yet!

mood: COLD! welcome, winter.....

tidbits

another whirlwind weekend trip to jingdezhen for work. though not as relaxing as the first trip, definitely was still chock-full of fun and a deep sense of rest.

a few shots i took from the weekend that i really, really like. i think it's something about the pop of color combined with the sense of comfort and beauty that can be found in simple things.



i love finding beauty in simplicity--rich colors, familiar forms, clean lines--it doesn't have to WOW me to make me appreciate it.

now if only life were that simple...

cups of coffee: 2

mood: tired, tired, tired....

work in progress

a highlight of my life here is an arts group some friends and i formed over a year ago. we meet together a couple of times a month to discuss faith and art, and encourage one another to engage our imaginations and be producing works of creativity. it has been amazing to watch this group grow, not just in numbers but also in level of commitment and breadth of vision. the core members of this group are dedicated to loving this city, seeking the peace of this city through a flourishing of our talents and imagination. i love our gatherings because there is so much energy: creative energy as well as an exuberant love for life, people and God. it is so nice to be spurred on in this way.

this year, we decided to hold an at-large activity once a month, to which we invite friends and create works within our various disciplines according to various themes. our hope is that after six months or so, we would have personally created a body of work and collectively created works that could culminate in some sort of final compilation project.

a discipline of creativity is so necessary. getting bogged down with work and routine responsibilities is inevitable and unless i am intentional about exercising creativity, i end up vegging out watching DVDs. i also have perfectionist tendencies and can be uber-sensitive about my work, which means projects are often started and then abandoned or forgotten.

in the spirit of generating creativity, i am attempting to create more and also share more. it's a good reminder that most of what i do is a work in progress, that i personally am also a work in progress, and it's not the perfection but the process that matters right now.

at our meeting tonight, the theme was "justice" and we were free to respond in any fashion we chose to some quotes about justice. i wrote a poem--free verse, i suppose--about social justice from a personal perspective, trying to capture the tension of being privileged but helpless, wanting to do so much but feeling like i actually contribute so little. i don't like how the poem ends and i would like to rework it, but for now, it is what it is.

so. in the spirit of trying to share my ideas more, here goes.

Enough?

From the comfort of a heated room
with mug of hot chocolate in hand
face and tummy warm from thick cuts of meat and thicker bread,
I click from site to site,
devastation and destruction
flickering like kaleidoscope images.
Floods in Bangladesh,
wars in the Middle East,
rape, plague, famine
hungry hands pleading for uncertain benevolence,
beaming from a bright small screen.

Is it enough to give 10 or 20 here,
to pledge this or that
all the while separated by miles and miles of land and sea,
culture and history,
experience and suffering,
the hand dealt by fate—
perhaps the greatest distance of all.

How much is enough for the old man by the subway stop,
hunched over and shivering,
shrouded in rags,
beard yellow and matted,
tin cup rattling in calloused hand,
eyes clouded, ruminating loss and certain regrets,
perhaps harboring quiet fury and indignation at what life has become?
Are my words and coins and offerings of fruit
mere microscopic drops in an insatiable bucket?

I, who simply opened my eyes and entered a world of loving parents,
striding through door after door of opportunity,
so empowered and yet so helpless.

Life cannot be only this:
a turn of some cosmic roulette or flick of the dice,
whereby we take what we get
and find some way of sleeping soundly at night.


cups of coffee: 2

mood: thankful and thinking, thinking, thinking

my fixes

i get fixated (perhaps even obsessive...?) easily. especially when life is hectic, there is certain comfort in having those little things to fall back on and enjoy. nice to have constancy and consistency when everything else seems to whirl and buzz at a million miles per minute.

so here are my current fixes:

- joshua radin's music! his voice, lyrics, melody.....it's like a massage for the soul. my current favorite tune of his: "sky." melancholic and upbeat....can't get enough!

- "grey's anatomy." :) ok, i admit that sometimes it gets trashy. and really, how do those people live such tangled love lives and get any work done?!? but the characters are so likeable, the medical cases so fascinating, the dialogue so witty and the music so DARN good! the fact that DVDs are cheap here only enables the cause further.

- headbands. i haven't really worn headbands since probably junior high, but i've rekindled my love for them recently. they're perfect for lazy days....pull the hair back into a ponytail and slap on a headband, good to go.

- green tea. i drink enough coffee to kill a horse. in an effort to remain caffeinated but cut back on the beans, i've started drinking green tea at work, making a pot a day. feeling zen already.

- peanut butter oreos. 'nuff said.


cups of coffee: none, yet!

mood: procrastinating.....

choice

watching the election results yesterday morning over a HUGE breakfast and coffee at malone's here in shanghai, i forgot for a moment that i was in china. surrounded by 100+ americans and interested and enthusiastic non-americans, all eyes glued to the TV screen as CNN showed the ever-changing blues and reds and the numbers rolled in, it was impossible not to get caught up in the electricity and excitement of history being made. it wasn't until i ran into the chinese cleaning lady in the restroom that it suddenly struck me that i was still in china, that i was celebrating democracy and the freedom to vote in a country where the people's voice is often muffled and subdued.

i am proud to be an american, i really am, even with the ridiculous things we often do as a nation and as a people. freedom doesn't come without cost, of course, and there are constant sacrifices to be made. and freedom without wisdom may result in detrimental consequences. but to have choice, to let your voice be heard even if it seems a whisper among the masses, to know that you can participate in change and progress...what a glorious privilege.

i have never been really into politics and living in china often makes me feel further removed from issues at home, but yesterday's experience was a great reminder of the gift of choice.

cups of coffee: 1 1/2

mood: hopeful